Great work! It's interesting how so much of who we are is really in how we are raised. But I think that there's good in recognizing how you were raised and reconciling that with how you want to be. In your instance, your upbringing caused you such problems in early life, but without that, you wouldn't have been able to come to the realization that you did, and you wouldn't be striving to be the person you want to be... you wouldn't know any different. It's never to late to be the person you want to be.